Why my love gave up on me at first
There are things secretly let gone without alarm for others hearing that passionately hurts the heart and takes a life time to let go of them from the heart.
being passionate from the heart isn't about lust neither romance but your willingness to pay the prices of what will make the one that runs your heart thoughts and figments happy no matter worth it.
God'slove; even before we became as friends I have the figmentation of she to become my mate someday at the sunrise.
Getting to ss2 (First term) I more like being close to her, though nature creates no much captivating memory but whenever light moment we spent together I know is another better story to tell within me.
Her gentle friendly caring heart captivates my heart.
And even when my heart was held captive I never act much to her knowledge though it's getting part of me that even when I began developing likeness in someone I tend not to let them know, even when am in love I still pretend and deprived my self from being in love.
I know sometimes she might feel am not interested in her or I don't like her and that she's the one forcing herself on me. But the truth is that I loved her even more than she could thought of me. But just that I was too ashamed and shay to take courage. though to me the best way I feel confessing or letting known my feelings to her isn't the right way of showing one your love for them but rather you show them the love and kind heart they deserves.
I remember the day we fought at UBE1 (@jss2), it always creates a smile in my face whenever what I did kneeling down in front of the staff room cross my mind. (well never thought any other lady has done that).
The moments we board on a flight together if can tell is another beautiful story that was created.
Early third term of ss2 I became more passion on her that she got my mind off.
rumours never stops hitting that she's in love with someone else, when I found out this I tried to let go of myself so as not to make her be double minded, though at first I was over jealous but I learned in love jealousy and pride will take you no where so I feel I should let go of her and what ever intensions I have in mind.
I was thinking if I let go of her to be with the person her heart choose to be with is the best way for her to find happiness since is her happiness I always wished for.
Most at times within me I judge and get tired of her of the rate at which she relates with boys but I never can convince myself to be apart of her.
I really do loved her despite the fact that I don't regain this feelings I had for her. Maybe we are met to be just better friends when I falled for for you but I still never regret fallen in love with you.
I used to imagine what will be capable of taken us apart at first when I began falling for you because I know what I feel for you is true.
I placed you before the woman of my life but you falled to realized it. fine, I never did things to your knowledge, you might feel have being pretending or even forming as u will call it but you never cared to know what I feel for you.
When am with you I might not broadcast to you of how I feel for you, no, not even will I talk of it, as you know of my limited speech when it comes to talking with someone face to face, except I put it in writing.
Now I have the boldness to express my feelings in this piece of writing because I know you already have found and are being bond in a heart worth all you needs. CONGRATULATION. That's a good thing keep it up.
Maybe, I'm jealous for not being with you, I never knew the worth of what I was with that I seems not to value and treasure. I know of its value when it no longer was there.
I never regret falling for you even if it will hurt me for a lifetime because what I feel for you is eternity.
Never be sorry for yourself, I myself choose this path because is what I thought will be best for you to be happy with the one your heart beats for.
I might keep pretending and acting all 
being passionate from the heart isn't about lust neither romance but your willingness to pay the prices of what will make the one that runs your heart thoughts and figments happy no matter worth it.
God'slove; even before we became as friends I have the figmentation of she to become my mate someday at the sunrise.
Getting to ss2 (First term) I more like being close to her, though nature creates no much captivating memory but whenever light moment we spent together I know is another better story to tell within me.
Her gentle friendly caring heart captivates my heart.
And even when my heart was held captive I never act much to her knowledge though it's getting part of me that even when I began developing likeness in someone I tend not to let them know, even when am in love I still pretend and deprived my self from being in love.
I know sometimes she might feel am not interested in her or I don't like her and that she's the one forcing herself on me. But the truth is that I loved her even more than she could thought of me. But just that I was too ashamed and shay to take courage. though to me the best way I feel confessing or letting known my feelings to her isn't the right way of showing one your love for them but rather you show them the love and kind heart they deserves.
I remember the day we fought at UBE1 (@jss2), it always creates a smile in my face whenever what I did kneeling down in front of the staff room cross my mind. (well never thought any other lady has done that).
The moments we board on a flight together if can tell is another beautiful story that was created.
Early third term of ss2 I became more passion on her that she got my mind off.
rumours never stops hitting that she's in love with someone else, when I found out this I tried to let go of myself so as not to make her be double minded, though at first I was over jealous but I learned in love jealousy and pride will take you no where so I feel I should let go of her and what ever intensions I have in mind.
I was thinking if I let go of her to be with the person her heart choose to be with is the best way for her to find happiness since is her happiness I always wished for.
Most at times within me I judge and get tired of her of the rate at which she relates with boys but I never can convince myself to be apart of her.
I really do loved her despite the fact that I don't regain this feelings I had for her. Maybe we are met to be just better friends when I falled for for you but I still never regret fallen in love with you.
I used to imagine what will be capable of taken us apart at first when I began falling for you because I know what I feel for you is true.
I placed you before the woman of my life but you falled to realized it. fine, I never did things to your knowledge, you might feel have being pretending or even forming as u will call it but you never cared to know what I feel for you.
When am with you I might not broadcast to you of how I feel for you, no, not even will I talk of it, as you know of my limited speech when it comes to talking with someone face to face, except I put it in writing.
Now I have the boldness to express my feelings in this piece of writing because I know you already have found and are being bond in a heart worth all you needs. CONGRATULATION. That's a good thing keep it up.
Maybe, I'm jealous for not being with you, I never knew the worth of what I was with that I seems not to value and treasure. I know of its value when it no longer was there.
I never regret falling for you even if it will hurt me for a lifetime because what I feel for you is eternity.
Never be sorry for yourself, I myself choose this path because is what I thought will be best for you to be happy with the one your heart beats for.
I might keep pretending and acting all
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